Michael Rossato-Bennett lives in NYC. He is a householder with a wife, two beautiful children and two dogs. He has accepted the challenge to become Enlightened in one year. Will he succeed?

A conversation: Is Hari a good Teacher? from Michael Rossato-Bennett on Vimeo.

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I finally get it.

My Vanity

We all have our vanities.

I finally get mine.  You know what it is?  Deep down I think I can understand.

Now, that is funny right?  But, I am finally admitting it!  I read books, I make theories!  And I really think I can understand stuff.  You know, I may actually be 2% smarter than 50% of the people, but that really does not warrent what goes on in my head.

I don’t understand.

I don’t understand people, I don’t understand me, I don’t understand what we are doing.

This whole year I have been learning about vibration.  I have been making a film about music and how it changes the life of people near death, in lonely places- Nursing Homes.  At the same time I have been meditating.

You know what i learned?  I learned people can not keep more than 5-7 trains of thought in their heads at the same time.  Corporations create millions of layers of hiding.  I learned that when we suffer trauma we freeze, some times we get stuck in a place and keep repeating our thoughts.  You know what else I learned?  I learned that at absoloute zero there is still motion.  The universe, the uni- one, verse- song, refuses to be in one place and our minds freeze us.

So forget my theories!  This has been the year of awakening the vibratory being.  Specifically, my chest, it froze very young and this year I let go of my own personal absolute zero and decided enough was enough and that place, like all the rest of the universe is meant to vibrate.

I know I was meant to live in a village of my lovers and my children, not these boxes in a machine.  We think it is funny when people have trouble making it work in life, at least when recounted by comedians.  The true comedy is that no one feels comfortable.  Dis comfort is the patriotic consumer choice.  I prefer to find the comfort.

I can not disengage my brain and go just for the vibration because that would be the Samurai laying down the sword in the field of his enemies.  Not that we needed another war metaphor but to live in this world one feels the need to not discard his jungle sences, honed over decades.

There is the possibility, if I were able to truly sing this vibration that I have stifled my whole life, that it would protect me from all harm.

I would love to believe that… what do you think?

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One Response to “I finally get it.”

  1. funchkie says:

    yes, i too seem to others to “understand” and the brain”s gears do their thing.

    you call that frozen in the brain

    uni-One song is in motion
    growth in motion at infinity and at zero

    so grow my son
    grow as your mother grows,
    shimmering in my heart
    not knowing what is “appropriate” it is that vibration which is so excruciatingly alive that it is easy to “understand” in our brains to avoid the pain of its beauty.

    lets be excruciatingly alive
    even mother and son can do that.

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